Crying yourself to sleep
Laying under my covers wrapped up tight hugging my a pillow is where I lay,
Feeling smaller and smaller wishing to disappear.
Tossing and turning, weaping eyes.
My hair sticking to my face.
I’m costaphobic but I don’t care.
My head is spinning my whole body is shaking, I’m thinking and thinking but my head hurts!
I try to think about tomorrow but all that comes to mind is “why am I here, What is my purpose?, why this? Why now? Why me?” it doesn’t seem normal, no one else in my mind goes through this.
I know there are people worse off.. But rite now it’s this drama and when it’s you, it’s true.. You dont know what to do.
I want to sneak out. Just go for a walk in the night air down the street.. But I’m only 15!!
This has been going on my whole life, when will it get better., I wounder.
I don’t want anything to do with them. I just want to scream.. But nothing comes out.
I hope for a better life, with no screaming no issues I’m just happy :)
But I feel like that will never be,
So I am sitting hear pooring my heart out, bearly able to see or breath
I think I need a Horan hug :/
I think about letting my anger out on myself, and I have been down that road before. But do they know? No! They think they know us inside out there my parents? But they are clueless
They don’t listening to what we think to how we acctually feel.
All I hear is muffled screaming from under my blanket. Threatening and slamming. I’m secretly scared the cops are going to show up… It’s happend before, I just don’t know what to do… Sleep?
I wish this was made up.., but it’s real.
